Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Day 2 - Flexibility, Acceptance & Perseverance

So I didn't quite make it to Yoga on Saturday. At first I was upset a the realization that my schedule was not going to permit me to allot the 2.5 hours that were needed. Life is about balance and doing justice to our priorities - on saturday it was my best friends engagement meet and greet as well as my startups first charity giveway.  Both are exciting, exhilarating and oh so important!

I made peace with what appeared to be a failure on my part as far as time managment at first, and realized that in order to be successful at any goal you need to be flexible. You need to acknowledge where you are, accept it and progress from there. Life happens and circumstances happen, so long as you keep your eyes on the approaching horizon, you are making directional progress.  Perhaps not the time, day, month or even year in which you would like to get to that horizon, but you will get there. Perseverance is the name of the game.

We set our sights on these ideas and goals, achivements we would like to realize but we forget, the road to get there is often, unpredictable, winding and unknown to us.  It is precisely when venturing into this unknown, that you need to be flexible. Change can be difficult, and if no adjustments are made to the changing environment on your road of change, change can be painful.

Think of the oceans and the waves that bring the tide in and out again - life is meant to be lived with that ease.  Flow on, flow forward and be happy :)

And of course in theory this all makes sense, in practice it is what unlocks higher wisdom; fruits that come from laborious effort.

Love, love, love. <3

Saturday, May 12, 2012

Day 1 - Sacrifice

So yesterday - was Day 1.  I was scheduled for you know the 6:30am 1.5 hour yoga class following a late Thursday night - BAD IDEA.

I had to be honest with myself in realizing, that a hangover and 1.5 hours of 105 degree heat was a recipe for disaster.  Mental discipline is a combination of being honest with yourself and knowing when your mind is just making excuses and let me tell you, that mind can be so damn convincing!  I felt fear tug me back while embarking upon this 60 day journey.  But what I realized, or rather remembered, you truly have to take it one day at a time, one moment at a time, you can't try to do it all at once. I can't take all 60 classes once! So one day, one class, one moment at a time...

I took the 6:30pm instead. I got there, I was ready, and boy did I sweat.  The point is that I made it, I had arrived, this wasn't going to be a just another commitment I blew off - I am tired of being unable to look at myself in the mirror stuck in a cycle of fear and shame. I am committed to the idea of bettering myself mentally, physically, and spiritually and I believe yoga will get me there.

As I sweltered in the heat, I was aware, or rather my mind made me fully aware of the fact that I couldn't do alot of the things I used to be able to do, that I was tight, tired, and out of sorts early on in class, but I was thankful for being there. Just showing up, is the least I could do, and I was there, attempting, making an effort, and fulfilling a commitment to myself.  I was slowly chiseling away at the sedentary block I have become, sedentary in so may ways, in ways that I cannot afford when going after my dreams.

I am sore today - and ecstatic that I am! In order to go after something important to you, you need to make room in your life...room because it matters, its a priority.  I had to create room yesterday based on my schedule with work, the business, and seeing friends, and I will do that today and so on.  In order to persevere, you must SACRIFICE.

Thursday, May 10, 2012

There's always a guiding LIGHT!

It's time I exfoliate old habits and declutter this mind of mine. 

Rather than wallow in inability to take definitive action, I want to at least begin a journey that has been calling me time and again.  It is a single life line that has kept me grounded - FAITH.  Extended to me from the unknown, only to lead me back to it.

Starting tomorrow, I will commence a 60 day challenge of yoga practice for 1.5 hours everyday. I need these disciplined practice to do an inner and outter cleanse: Spiritiually, Emotionally, Mentally and Physically. I want to work on disciplining my mind, and letting go of patterns of thinking, feeling (and a few pounds) that are no longer useful to me especially at a time that I aspire to be better and rise above.
Day 1 is tomorrow and I can hardly wait. I promise to post each day a new revelation whilst on my road of self discovery. 

:) "who turned the lights on??"